I always assumed that my spouse and I shared every single detail. We shared every absurd joke, every small worry, and every aspiration. We recognized each other’s peculiarities and weaknesses, celebrated our wins together, and supported one another during difficult times. At least, that was my belief until Christmas Day, when everything I thought I knew crumbled around me.
“Andrea, I need to tell you something,” Shawn began, his fingers beating nervously on the kitchen counter. “The boss called. He requires me to deal with an emergency customer problem in Boston.
I looked up from my coffee and studied his face. There was something unusual about his expression. A hint of… guilt? Anxiety?
“During Christmas?” My eyes widened.
“Yes, I understand. I tried to leave, but he ran his hand through his black hair, a gesture I had grown fond of over our three-year marriage. The client is threatening to withdraw their entire account.
“You’ve never had to travel on Christmas before.” I curled my hands around my coffee mug to stay warm. “Couldn’t someone else handle it?”
“Trust me, I wish there was.” His eyes caught mine briefly before darting away. “I will make it up to you, I swear. “We’ll have our own Christmas when I return.”
“Well, I guess duty calls.” I attempted a grin, but disappointment weighed heavily on my chest. “When are you leaving?”
“Tonight. I’m so sorry, honey.”
I nodded and fought back tears. We were planning to spend our first Christmas apart since we met.
That evening, as I helped Shawn pack, memories of our time together flooded back to me.
I recalled our wedding day, how his eyes lit up as I went down the aisle, and how he surprised me with weekend vacations. He put in extra hours at the consulting firm to accumulate funds for our dream home, a Victorian home featuring a wrap-around porch.
“Remember our first Christmas?” I questioned him as he folded his sweatshirt. “When did you almost burn down our apartment while trying to prepare a roast turkey?”
He laughed. “How could I forget?” The fire department wasn’t pleased with the 3 a.m. call.
“Remember last Christmas, when you bought us those matching ugly sweaters?”
“You still wore yours to work!”
“Because you dared me to!” I threw a sock at him, which he caught with a grin. “The office still hasn’t let me live it down.”
His smile had faded slightly. “I’m so sorry about this trip, darling.”
“I know!” I sat at the edge of the bed. “It’s just… Christmas won’t be the same without you.”
He sat next to me and took my hand. “Promise you won’t open your presents until I’m back?”
“Cross my heart.” I leaned on his shoulder. “Promise you’ll call?”
“Every opportunity I get, “I love you.”
“Love you too.”
As I watched him drive away, something niggled in the back of my mind. But I pushed that notion away. It was Shawn, after all. My name is Shawn. He provided me with soup during my illness and joined me in dancing under the rain. I had the utmost trust in him.
Christmas Eve arrived, bringing a layer of snow and an unshakeable sense of desolation. The home seemed too quiet and silent. I’d spent the day making cookies, watching Christmas movies, and wrapping last-minute presents… alone.
Shawn called about 9 p.m., and my phone lit up. My heart jumped.
“Merry Christmas, beautiful,” he murmured, his tone strangely strained.
“Merry Christmas!” How is it in Boston? Did you get the customer matter resolved?”
“It’s, um, good. Listen, I can’t really speak right now.” I need to go—”
In the background, I heard plates clinking, muted voices, and laughter.
“Are you at dinner?” Is it this late? “I thought you had meetings?”
“I have to go!” he virtually yelled. “Emergency meeting!”
The call went dead.
My hands trembled as I stared at my phone. What about an emergency meeting? At 9 p.m. on Christmas Eve? With restaurant sounds in the background. None of it made sense.
Then I recalled my fitness tracker. I left it in his car after we went grocery shopping last weekend. With shaky fingers, I launched the app on my phone.
The location pointer flickered back, mocking my confidence. Shawn’s automobile was not in Boston. We parked it at a motel in our city, less than 15 minutes away from our home.
For a brief time, my world stopped whirling. Then everything came back in a whirlwind of ideas.
A hotel? In our city? On Christmas Eve?
My thoughts raced through possible outcomes, each worse than the previous. Was he meeting anyone? Had our whole marriage been a lie? The tense behavior, the rapid departure, and the weird phone call were all red flags.
“No,” I muttered to myself. “No, no, no.”
I dashed to my car and drove directly to the hotel without thinking.
The trip unfolded in a flurry of tears and terrifying possibilities. Each red light seemed like torment. Every second passed, and my mind raced with possibilities I couldn’t stand to fathom.
Shawn’s silver vehicle was immediately in the parking lot when I arrived.
The sight of it—the automobile I’d helped him choose, the car we’d taken on numerous road trips—made my stomach turn.
My hands trembled as I marched into the lobby, my heart thumping so fiercely I feared it might burst. Christmas music played gently in the background, like a terrible joke.
The receptionist gave me a trained grin. “Can I help you?”
I took out my phone and picked up a snapshot of Shawn and me from last summer’s beach trip. My thumb brushed against his smiling face.
“This man is my husband.” “What room is he in?”
She paused. “Ma’am, I’m not supposed to—”
“Please, I need to know. He claimed to be in Boston, but his car is right outside. Please… I need to know what is going on.
Something about my expression must have moved her. Maybe it was the tears I couldn’t hold back, or maybe she had seen this sight before. She typed something into her computer while returning her gaze to my phone.
She announced, “Room 412,” as she slid a keycard over the counter. “But, Miss?” Sometimes things aren’t as they appear.”
I barely heard her last words as I hurried to the elevator.
The elevator journey seemed interminable. Each floor clattered by like a countdown to catastrophe. When I eventually arrived on the fourth level, I dashed along the corridor, my footsteps muted by the carpet.
Room 412. I didn’t knock; I simply swiped the keycard and rushed in.
“Shawn, how could you—”
The words died in my throat.
There was Shawn, standing next to a wheelchair.
And in that wheelchair sat a man with silver-streaked hair and familiar eyes, which I hadn’t seen since I was five. Eyes that had once watched me take my first steps crinkled at the corners as he smiled at my jokes and welled up with tears on the day he departed.
“DADDY?” The word emerged as a whisper, a plea, and a question I had harbored for 26 years.
“ANDREA!” my father said, his voice trembling. “My little girl.”
Time seemed to pause as memories surged back: Mom destroyed all his letters following the divorce, and we relocated across the country. I cried myself to sleep, tightly gripping the last birthday card he’d managed to send—the one featuring a small cartoon dog and the words, “I’ll love you forever.”
“How?” I turned to Shawn with tears flowing down my cheeks. “How did you…?”
“I’ve been looking for him for a year,” Shawn explained quietly. “I learned a few things about him from your mother a few months before her death. I found him in Arizona last week through social media acquaintances. He suffered a stroke some years ago and lost his ability to walk. I drove down to collect him yesterday and wanted to surprise you for Christmas.”
My father grabbed for my hand. His fingers were thinner than I recalled, yet their soft firmness remained the same.
“I’ve never stopped looking for you, Andrea. Your mother made it difficult. You’ve changed addresses and relocated several times. But I’ve never stopped loving you. I have never ceased searching for my little girl.
I collapsed to my knees beside his wheelchair, crying as he gathered me into his arms. His fragrance, the sandalwood aroma of my boyhood, enveloped me like a warm blanket.
All the Christmas wishes I’ve ever made, every birthday candle I’ve blown out, and every 11:11 hope I’ve ever had all came for this very moment.
“I thought…” I gulped between sobs. “When I saw the hotel… I thought…”
“Oh, sweetheart,” Shawn kneeled beside us. “I really wanted to tell you. But I had to make sure I could find him first. I couldn’t bear the thought of disappointing you if things didn’t work out.
“I’m so sorry,” I said to Shawn later, after things had calmed down and we’d ordered room service.
He pulled me closer to the small sofa. I wanted it to be flawless. Tomorrow morning, during Christmas brunch, you will see your father walking… well, rolling in… and the expression on your face will be unforgettable.
“It is perfect!” I looked between the two guys I adored the most in the world. “Even if I spoiled your surprise. “I could have suffered a heart attack on the way here.”
“It is perfect!” I looked between the two guys I adored the most in the world. “Even if I spoiled your surprise. “I could have suffered a heart attack on the way here.”
“I have 26 years of stories saved up,” Dad explained quietly. “If you want to hear them.”
“I want to hear everything.” I grabbed his hand. “Every single story.”
I rested my head on Shawn’s shoulder and listened as my father recounted memories from my childhood that I had thought had vanished forever. On Christmas Day, church bells began to sound in the distance as snow drifted softly outside.
My dad’s eyes twinkled. “Now, who’s ready to hear about the time five-year-old Andrea decided to give our dog a haircut?”
“I think what we’re all ready to hear,” Shawn added with a wry smile, “is how Andrea jumped to conclusions and thought her loving husband was up to no good on Christmas Eve!”
I moaned but could not stop giggling. “I’m never going to live this down, am I?”
“Never,” they both responded at once, and the sound of their laughter was the sweetest Christmas present I could have ever gotten.